I wish I could give you hug, Rosie. I just don't know what to say. You amaze me, that's for certain. When I read what you wrote about your father it reminds me so much of my own dad - I'm lucky because I live far enough away that I'm not in much of a position to help him if he needs it. We do have a better relationship now than we used to, but he's not IN my space and I think I would go crazy if he were, even for a day. I love him, and do forgive him, but can't forget.
Thank goodness you have Midge - I know he understands and I'm relieved he could be there for you.
You did it, luv. Your home belongs to you again and I hope that you don't have to go through anything more like that in the future. It was an incredible gesture for you to make toward your father, but we all have our limits so please don't be too hard on yourself or think that you are not strong. You're an angel.
Peace to your heart and a BIG hug
bird