thanks for the kind words, Carol. it means a lot.
i'm better now than i was years ago. it's just that after watching The War Zone, it brought it all back. i'd never actually healed, i'd just sort of tucked it all in the back of my head. now that i've gone and made it a part of my life again, i've decided to deal with it and try to move on. instead of ignoring it this time.
and people think that i'm sooo happy. that's just the way i come off, i guess. but inside, i still have that dark place.
i was thinking about seeing a counselor or something (the school provides their services for free), but i'm hung up about it....people will think i'm crazy, won't they?