Hello Careasa, Thank you for the note back (wow, I'm so in awe with everything I've read on this message board...the heartfelt concern & caring, great advice and encouragement coming from everyone). I've been so private with everything my whole life that I was honestly surprised (but delighted) to get a response back. And with such understanding (I wanted to cry). I'll truly put effort into getting comfortable with posting here; one of the reasons I've always found it so difficult has been the fear that no one believes me and if so, how they look at you once they know. But it has been a long term desire to be able to talk to someone who understands what I've gone through.
It's awesome and peculiar at the same time how I found the site...but I'm so happy I did. (do you mind if I share?)
Recently when I couldn't sleep I decided to surf the web and came across an article about Tim Roth being abused as a child...he talked about his experiences, excising demons and his life now...I was truly impressed and encouraged. I finished the article hopeful that if someone like TR who has so much talent and is so full of life & success could make it past something so terrible, then maybe I could too. So I searched more and found this site. What a blessing; I'm so grateful. Thanks again.