Hello Bird, Thank you very, very much for the welcome. I've had so many years of being reclusive with hidden feelings and what happened to me as a child that finding this message board is the first time in a long time I've shared with anyone other than my spouse. My husband (who had a wonderful childhood and super parents) doesn't always understand where many of my emotional problems stem from; it's frustrating at times, especially for him. I had chronic fatigue syndrome set in (again) about a year ago, shortly following my birth fathers death (I was named executor over his estate...me, the child he tortured and abused...I hadn't seen him in years). The illness has made everything a challenge (things flood back in and I'm so tired)...even getting up some days is a major accomplishment. So, I have high hopes that being able to hear from others who have made strides forward, overcome difficulties, and now live blessed lives will be an inspiration for me to do the same again, and get myself unstuck. I've already been inspired by being here...I'm posting again today, and that's HUGE...I wouldn't have had the courage to do this a year ago and get anything out; it would've just stayed inside.
Thank you so much...very, very appreciated.
Thea