I hide myself away in an office behind paper work and computers and dataentry. Behind basic stuff that is not challenging me to grow.
I hide there because I know it. Because it is simple. Because it is mindless.
I like mindless. and yet I also am frustrated with mindless. It's easy.
I jump online and I feel like I am living. I feel like I am allowing the real me to shine.
I know I shine in my way in my office. I shine my light in the relationships of the office environment. On the phone and in email and in meetings and face to face. I know I shine. Though I feel like I am hiding away the fullness of this light.
I want to be a counselor. I think this is my calling, and yet it scares the bejesus out of me to say that and to notice that and to even consider that.
It scares me more then jumping out of a plane at 11 thousand feet.
so just sharing this here. putting out into the universe.
I think that this will help me to be open to loving this about myself. Loving this fear and letting it go.