JT my prayers and thoughts are with you and your husband, please come and vent here as much as you need to. I hope you have good friends and family around you to help out with shopping and cooking you a meal sometimes etc, don't be afraid to askk them as people sometimes don't want to intrude but welcome the request for them to help you in practical ways as we all feel so helpless at times like this.
a huge hug across the miles to you JT
Vickie