DON�T KNOW
"I don�t know if ill ever win?
Will I ever stop this sin?
Sometimes it seems reachable
But so many times unthinkable
After change I find a way to fall
God I always come back to call
It never changes me
So hopefully soon I will see
I�m dying to you and not to me
Don�t know what to do
Cause I�m falling further from you
Please help me this is a callout
So hopefully I won�t drop out
Knowing what needs to stop
But when it comes time I flop
Too much of me loves my sins
Until that changes I'm pinned
So cool on the outside
But dying on the inside
God I know your there
I feel u in every last hair
How do I go on I don�t know
But the guiltiness lost its flow
I know me against me
Is the battle I face?
One part wishes to flee
The other wishes to mace
So that I can�t be
What I�m meant for
God please help me
Hate this sin, this whore
I can stand against a crowd
But against myself bowed
So many time sin the past
And always to fast
To fall back again
In this killing sin
I hope one day I will prevail
I know your strength hails
I love you God so
Why still don�t I know?"
By Joshua Hudson